Once I Graduate, I'll Take Myself Somewhere Wonderful.

Once I Graduate, I'll Take Myself Somewhere Wonderful.
IT will FEEL as good as it looks~

Paradise is Priceless

Paradise is Priceless
I Only Had One Life So I Wrote of It While I Could
Love and Pain are one in the same in the eyes of a wounded child



I always believed it is better to give than to receive. But if ever there was a day that I received the same way I gave, I would have nothing more to wish for. I've actually felt that reality once.

~10,000~ Days

My Everyday is Worth 10,000 Words


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(I Wasn't as much mad at you as much as I was mad about you.)

Dat Sweet & Sexxy Girl!

Words of the Wise

"How could it be through misery that came to pass, the hard times make a true friend afraid to ask."

Tupac Shakur


"Nothing Happens The Same Way Twice My Dear."

Aslan to Lucy


"I'm Not Crazy, I'm Just a Little Unwell."

"Some Things In This World, Man They Don't Make Sense.
Some Things You Don't Need Until They Leave You ~
They're The Things That You Miss."

(Bright Lights)

Rob THOMAS*
Matchbox 20

It Was Great To Speak Out...

It Was Great To Speak Out...
Thanks For The Chance... Virgin Islands Radio Station : )

A Friend Who Kept In Touch~ In Times Like These, It Means SO Much. Times I Felt Forgotten~

I read your blogs on the internet, and I had to write you to say Thank You Justin.

The messages of happiness in them really made me reflect on all that I miss out on in life sometimes when things get really really stressful. It made my day refreshed with something positive.

I feel bad when you call me when all I can be is negative. Sometime I worry so much about making other people happy or dealing with the stresses of life that I forget to stop and focus on what makes me happy and just take a deep breath and enjoy what living really means.

The simple pleasure of just feeling content with life and focusing on the here and now is such a blessing to not be overlooked.

Thanks again for spreading some happiness,
-k-

A Fairy Tale, A New Name, A New Place, A Wonder For Some Time To Come...

The Woman In the Pond


You have to be very Cautious on Fridays when the day is done... And if there is a full moon, the world is also bewitched. If on one of those nights you get close to a deep pond, you may see the pond woman. She rises to the surface without making the slightest noise or the smallest wave. Then she remains silent and stares at you with her ice cold eyes. Next, she makes a gesture with her small white hands and, whether you want to or not, you will enter the water. The water's surface will be drawn over your head and no living soul knows what may happen next....


That story went on... It was from the book 'Far Away and Long Ago Fairy Tales and Stories' by Hans Overbeek. But I realized that weeks ago, someone gave me a new name. I know what it meant too. 4 Days after I released the world I knew not too long ago, it dawned on me that I have considered 4/19 a second birthday for as much of what I've realized about myself since my scar.


Things I wished I could've always put into words. Things that validate that I am who I should be. Things that clarify why I value the things I do and live for. Things that I see in people, and OF people... It also explained why I have my reasons and it let me know that all of what I have had happen might justify itself at some point in time...

Then I wondered to myself what the Stars might be like around the time I could find a Garden of Lights in the middle of a Magical Night. There is no way to know though... Not now anyhow...

I Found out 4/19 as a birthday indicated Pisces in Mars & Venus

I Found out 4/19 as a birthday indicated Pisces in Mars & Venus
After almost dying, it felt good to live this way

~It Was 11:33 Before Mid Night On 09/09/09... I Accidently Found This After I Could Have Been Shot.

In truth, there are many parts to your journey on the Earth plane, that you have not understood to be of importance. All that is needed, is the willingness to be in a place of thankfulness, of gratitude, that you have the gift of Life, of experiencing, on the Earth plane at this momentous time of Shifting consciousness. And in that Light, to find what is there in the simplest of things, to enjoy, to be in wonderment of, to share this pleasure with others, that all may come to understand that life does not have to be the following of a series of lists of things to be done by when, but can be a process of flow, of Harmony, of Joyousness in the moment.

What does this look like, when you have deadlines to meet, or cannot seem to structure your day other than to rush from one thing to another? Even so, there are moments, and there are times, when you give yourself the opportunity to show Love to another, to express your own delight in something beautiful or funny or wonderful around you, that brings the magic of Love into your day. And when you find it within you, to give this time, this opportunity for Love, to Your Self, the magic truly begins to unfold before you.

Begin by taking the steps to Enjoy what you do, to discover what that is, and to do more and more of it, until you are always in a state of Love energy, for what you are doing nourishes the very heart of you, and so Love is expressed from you and through you at all times. Even when you feel yourself to be having a "bad day", if what you are doing is that which for the most part, nourishes you, there is little change in the energy that is released by you, as it is perceived by others around you. And when you take the trouble to shift your own energy to a more pleasing way of Being, Love is multiplied even more than before. (Tikele) - http://www.tikele.com.au/

Celebrate Life. Find time to sing and dance and to be creative. You are the creative artists of the Universe. This is how you hold your balance on the Inner Planes; by setting the intention to celebrate the gifts of life and love as they are experienced every day. (Celia Fenn) - http://www.starchildascension.org/

And we exist! That alone is miraculous! We have survived a chronic, often fatal disease. For many of us, life is better than before addiction, because we've found a new appreciation for life, a new depth and peace, a new calmness. And we can continue to grow in recovery each beautiful day that is given to us. Today babies across the world are being born, bringing millions of hopeful and exciting possibilities into our world. Now, we're ready to take our place in the sun as one of the world's new hopeful possibilities. We live and breathe and feel and think, and we are watched over by a Higher Power who loves us and has a plan for our lives. Today let me look for the good in my world and be thankful. (Source) - http://www.hazelden.org/

Ocean Serenity

Ocean Serenity
Inspiration and Motivation

BROKEN

I Re-broke My Hand Again...

Everyone's Card: The SUN ~ Tarot Deck Spiral

General Meaning:

What has traditionally been known as the Sun card is about the self -- who you are and how you cultivate your personality and character. The earth revolves around the sun to make up one year of a person's life, a fact we celebrate on our birthday.

The Sun card could also be titled "Back to Eden." The Sun's radiance is where one's original nature or unconditioned Being can be encountered in health and safety. The limitations of time and space are stripped away; the soul is refreshed and temporarily protected from the chaos outside the garden walls.

Under the light of the Sun, Life reclaims its primordial goodness, truth and beauty. If one person is shown on this card, it is usually signifying a human incarnation of the Divine.

Sunset ~ Magen's Bay

Sunset ~ Magen's Bay
Pirates That Demand You To Surrender *** ***** : ]

Another Crazy Horoscope? Oh SHIT... It Wasn't My Horoscope though...

Your lover or friend may assume too much today as he or she acts in a rather selfish manner. You might be surprised or even offended by other people's current carelessness or by their lack of compassion, but don't expect to understand. A relationship situation is likely out of your control, so as the lightning strikes just watch with the knowledge that the storm will quickly pass if you don't become too rigid.


And on October 10th... Thanx for SKYPIN' me AX!!! Your a BLAST man. I Appreciated talking to a damn good friend at home from a place like here. Let alone talking to a damn good friend from home for almost an hour...

We'll run some radio when I'm back someday after a handful of weeks. Thanx for you support Buddy~ : )

~I Do UnderWater Explorations every Tuesday~
~Scuba with tha fishies! And I find the Underwater Sun Rays~

Swimming in the Rain...

This Is a Place I Spent a Lot of Time at Growing Up...

This Is a Place I Spent a Lot of Time at Growing Up...
Since The Days I Was a Little Boy ; ) LOL

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

These Days...

I got to talk to my Brother Gary back and home and that really helped me here but I've still been having such a badass blast lately. I can't believe how constantly remarkable things are here. Every moment, hour and day is of it's own awesome constant.

Today I went and caught up with my professor Sekou at his office for the first time. I seen his library and told him about mine and it dawned on me that I can talk to professors and they learn just as much from me.. The Chakras, the ways the stars relate with what is carried out on Earth, the things people see and sense of me here, things of astrology, sociology... I found about about the Aztecs and Mayans and how the pyramids the Mayans made were just as related with the constellations as the Egyptians when they had made the pyramids along the Nile in correlation with how the Orions Belt reflects it next to the Milky Way. It was pretty cool. I told them about Stonehenge and Celtic Events over these recent 3 millenniums. Things of Legend, Magic, Ancient Animals... It was TIGHT. They all looked at me and enjoyed listening. Some times when I'm heard it is easy to see that I usually have a very gentle voice even though certain words seem strong, or serious.

I showed Sekou the relations with The Book of Revelations to what is happening in the world now. About the Statue of Liberty written in Revelations, about what was released to deceive the Nations (which has to do with these wars and worldly emergencies surfacing). I told him about the New World Order and how its attempt will make every one forced towards what a particular scripture talks about. It is crazy how the Last book in the Bible is the only book of the Bible that talks about the present point in time as well as the future. People don't realize that at times, that book is quite literally clear with some of what was written in the 1st to 5th century that is coming true NOW. The Book itself is written from a dream language but even still, some things are very easy to interpret if you would know how to. I told him about Zeitgeist and how I contradicted and challenged the person who gave involvements with the first section pertaining to Religion. That film literally had the world watching 70% of all internet views and it damn near got passed as an international holiday called "Z" day. Even though she was conducting seminars across this country, when it came to what the movie claimed about things that were astrological, I countered her lectures because I knew certain things to be true about Astrology that she failed to mention. I didn't like her misinforming these students just to strengthen what the movie claimed. Trying to use Astrology to denounce that Jesus wasn't even here when Astrology actually VALIDATES things because every 2000 years, an astrological era is the duration when a messiah is to surface again. But like C.S. Lewis said in Narnia, Aslan told Lucy, "Nothing happens the same way twice, my dear."

I also spoke of how certain questions in that powerful film that was across the globe were things I could've answered in the Auditorium. How certain books of the 1st and 5th century were hidden from humanity until 16 centuries later. After 1600 years, a great amount of the books that were excluded from the New and Old testament revealed themselves to humanity in 1945. She didn't like it at this lecture in the Meese auditorium when I was asking her questions she seemed baffled about. It was pretty interesting to see a world wide documentary success that I was countering because of what I knew.

After telling Sekou these things, I told him to watch End Game and Apacalypto. It turns out, he wants me to help him decide what way the last day here will play out. I gave him the ideas of what movies he would want the students to see. I guess I could speak of history forever. And the future forever. I could talk about Astrology, Tupac, Michael Collins, Ireland, Marilyn Manson, the way the Bible came to be, how God came and found me, how I found him a year later. I told him of things with Hilter and Machiavelli, Mayans, The Vatican, Alexandria where the world's largest library once was before it sank into an Ultimate Ocean and lost a lot of the Ancient World's Records.

Sekou kept smiled at me. I spoke to him about how I'm Native American and for that reason, I often see things in the Dream World that are accurate to what is... Subliminal with realities events. He sensed that I would really like Carl Jung. I told him, "Hell Yeah I do." I already knew who Carl Jung was regarding his psychology work that is specifically related to dreams. I told him things about Atlantis and how even though humans believe it to be a lost civilization, I knew of things, possibilities I guess, regarding how ancient records of that Surreal and Ideal Zeal might still be in tact within future years from here. And the Sphinx has a lot to do with it. Perhaps the tomb of the Sphinx holds answers we don't know yet and the world is about to reset itself.

Later in the Evening, I went to the Radio World in the Virgin Islands. It actually is RIGHT NEXT TO CRUM BAY!! :) It seems I became involved in a Writer's Block. I got brought to this V.I. Radio Station after the Open Mic Night here in St. Thomas. It seems that creativity and self-expression are values and talents that are exalted here. The man who ran the show with me and will continue to run future shows with me here out of the V.I. Radio World, he told me that it isn't only honored or appreciated here, but that poetry, creativity, and self-expression is NECESSARY. They thanked me for coming and I was having a blast and making they asses laugh. With my radio shows at home, it was an internet stream. This station and radio company actually has a really wide audience in live airwaves as well an internet streams. I remember some of the contributions I made...



"I'm in Ireland at them badass Castles,
Dispisin' Meatheads mistreatin' women like they assholes.
Living proof of what could come true since when I turned my tassels,
I am who I is cuz of all of what I have to hold."

"After Irish Castles, left baffled and then passed off as a myth /
It's unknown and it's at home with all the Celtic Irish gifts.
Got Guinness language as it came to this /
And then I made it clear.
I got whiskey if you with me, and the Celtic Beers."

"I live forever then I know it /
I record it then upload it.
In Mechanical Channels, I Felt my heart when it exploded.

Then my minds in a vice but its outside of the box /
Lost in the thoughts I'm locked in the paradox
They hangin' in the balance between the virtues of fear and love
Energies and intuitions to pray to whats above.
Paradise is priceless but it isn't what it seems /
People couldn't see the sick under-belly under TV screens.
There is evil anarchy in the islands, and fantasy in the air.
I oughta be commended if I acknowledge that I care."

The man runnin' the show with me was like, "Damn, that's divine. Yea MON."

And they had callers that called into the Station and went on the air with us. It was pretty badass.

"I spoke of how I lost my mind /
its down the center of my spine.
To tower over power at the ending of time.
And for as huge as a heart can be /
a tattoo scarred as a part of me
There is a lot worth seein' and even more worth believin'
I got lost in the magic as I had it last season."


And apparently some free spoken poetry words were called in from people listening on these islands. His name was SAMBA! : ) He started to serenade a lady that made him crazy. He got pretty descriptive and passionate about his restless affectionate sex letters so he spoke of some shit that was SO Scorpio. And it was Lion as hell as well. So It triggered me on behalf of the writing community to do descriptive intimate poetry too. I guess I talked about nurses and services and skirts and flirts. I dunno. It was fun, funny, and entertaining though. St. Thomas loved it.

I came to find that next day, that we actually drove by CRUM Bay that night we went right by it to the Radio Station. I had never known so but I am aware of where that Bay is at now. I'm going to see it soon. It was basically a Bay that was a Port for the POWER of what generates this Island. I think it is very ironic and symbolic that a CRUM BAY is what is the POWER SOURCE for the island here. HOW DOES THAT INTERPRET ITSELF IF ALL THIS WAS MEANT TO BE AS IT IS HAPPENIN'?

They took pictures for the Writer's Block of free expression and creative contributions. I never knew I would've been involved in the World of Radio through Writing Communities of Open Mic Night.

I got back to Campus and a lot of people heard about how I went on radio and asked me what it was like and how it was. I told them it was awesome and fun. It was a badass blast to speak over airwaves about a lot of what's going on with me. I guess one connection lead to the other and it was all at my lap just cuz I showed up and never got cold feet of what they believed with me.



It kind of reminded me of my ex in a way because even though she never knew it, she was the second person who told me that she believed in me. It meant so much to me because the only other person to tell me the same exact thing was a beautiful orphan friend of mine that died young in a cruel world. Joel. As she passed on, I was 18 years old and before she died, she gave me a gift for my birthday that was a cat looking into a mirror and seeing a Lion. It held a vital lifelong message I'll always keep with me, "What Matters Most Is How You See Yourself." She gave me that, died, and told me she believed in me before she went to the other side. My ex was the second and only other person to ever say the same thing she did.

But now that I'm here and everyday is epic, laughter, constant curious interests that seem to be aimed at me from these people... Now it is THEM that are encouraging me in a way that acknowledges positive beliefs OF me... Or IN me... It was inspiring. Especially from the right people. Then before night came to an end, I was kicking it with three of my friends. One was a homeboy here in my resident sweet, another was the other buddy that has had that hardest laugh attacks at me. They think I'm the most hilarious and lively man they met yet. I started to speak of Tupac, and what I think of most other rap.

And after all of what I knew about 2Pac and how he visited me a few times, Rasheed like, "Damn Crum, you should give lectures about Tupac man. How old are you? And how you know so much shit?"

It was cool because St. Daniel in Ireland said some of the same things only a little more than a month ago.

I uploaded my newest youtube video and it gave a text credit to what I learned from King Mera, "Everything Happens for a Reason. Everything has it's time. Everything goes as it should and all things will be of their time and place."

I was basically living another life to to discover the ideal place for a futuristic honeymoon with someone who reminds me of these erotic tropic islands. Beautiful Virgo. I put that caption king Mera told me in the video that is meant show what it means to be here. I thought it was crazy for Mera to say such a thing at a place where there were pirates and Dr. Suess characters. The island Anarchy and hardship regarding lack of economy or job markets forces people to do weird things for money here. I almost had to handle something painful or possibly fatal. No one at home knows this though... Danger could be a rush sometimes.

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