Once I Graduate, I'll Take Myself Somewhere Wonderful.

Once I Graduate, I'll Take Myself Somewhere Wonderful.
IT will FEEL as good as it looks~

Paradise is Priceless

Paradise is Priceless
I Only Had One Life So I Wrote of It While I Could
Love and Pain are one in the same in the eyes of a wounded child



I always believed it is better to give than to receive. But if ever there was a day that I received the same way I gave, I would have nothing more to wish for. I've actually felt that reality once.

~10,000~ Days

My Everyday is Worth 10,000 Words


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(I Wasn't as much mad at you as much as I was mad about you.)

Dat Sweet & Sexxy Girl!

Words of the Wise

"How could it be through misery that came to pass, the hard times make a true friend afraid to ask."

Tupac Shakur


"Nothing Happens The Same Way Twice My Dear."

Aslan to Lucy


"I'm Not Crazy, I'm Just a Little Unwell."

"Some Things In This World, Man They Don't Make Sense.
Some Things You Don't Need Until They Leave You ~
They're The Things That You Miss."

(Bright Lights)

Rob THOMAS*
Matchbox 20

It Was Great To Speak Out...

It Was Great To Speak Out...
Thanks For The Chance... Virgin Islands Radio Station : )

A Friend Who Kept In Touch~ In Times Like These, It Means SO Much. Times I Felt Forgotten~

I read your blogs on the internet, and I had to write you to say Thank You Justin.

The messages of happiness in them really made me reflect on all that I miss out on in life sometimes when things get really really stressful. It made my day refreshed with something positive.

I feel bad when you call me when all I can be is negative. Sometime I worry so much about making other people happy or dealing with the stresses of life that I forget to stop and focus on what makes me happy and just take a deep breath and enjoy what living really means.

The simple pleasure of just feeling content with life and focusing on the here and now is such a blessing to not be overlooked.

Thanks again for spreading some happiness,
-k-

A Fairy Tale, A New Name, A New Place, A Wonder For Some Time To Come...

The Woman In the Pond


You have to be very Cautious on Fridays when the day is done... And if there is a full moon, the world is also bewitched. If on one of those nights you get close to a deep pond, you may see the pond woman. She rises to the surface without making the slightest noise or the smallest wave. Then she remains silent and stares at you with her ice cold eyes. Next, she makes a gesture with her small white hands and, whether you want to or not, you will enter the water. The water's surface will be drawn over your head and no living soul knows what may happen next....


That story went on... It was from the book 'Far Away and Long Ago Fairy Tales and Stories' by Hans Overbeek. But I realized that weeks ago, someone gave me a new name. I know what it meant too. 4 Days after I released the world I knew not too long ago, it dawned on me that I have considered 4/19 a second birthday for as much of what I've realized about myself since my scar.


Things I wished I could've always put into words. Things that validate that I am who I should be. Things that clarify why I value the things I do and live for. Things that I see in people, and OF people... It also explained why I have my reasons and it let me know that all of what I have had happen might justify itself at some point in time...

Then I wondered to myself what the Stars might be like around the time I could find a Garden of Lights in the middle of a Magical Night. There is no way to know though... Not now anyhow...

I Found out 4/19 as a birthday indicated Pisces in Mars & Venus

I Found out 4/19 as a birthday indicated Pisces in Mars & Venus
After almost dying, it felt good to live this way

~It Was 11:33 Before Mid Night On 09/09/09... I Accidently Found This After I Could Have Been Shot.

In truth, there are many parts to your journey on the Earth plane, that you have not understood to be of importance. All that is needed, is the willingness to be in a place of thankfulness, of gratitude, that you have the gift of Life, of experiencing, on the Earth plane at this momentous time of Shifting consciousness. And in that Light, to find what is there in the simplest of things, to enjoy, to be in wonderment of, to share this pleasure with others, that all may come to understand that life does not have to be the following of a series of lists of things to be done by when, but can be a process of flow, of Harmony, of Joyousness in the moment.

What does this look like, when you have deadlines to meet, or cannot seem to structure your day other than to rush from one thing to another? Even so, there are moments, and there are times, when you give yourself the opportunity to show Love to another, to express your own delight in something beautiful or funny or wonderful around you, that brings the magic of Love into your day. And when you find it within you, to give this time, this opportunity for Love, to Your Self, the magic truly begins to unfold before you.

Begin by taking the steps to Enjoy what you do, to discover what that is, and to do more and more of it, until you are always in a state of Love energy, for what you are doing nourishes the very heart of you, and so Love is expressed from you and through you at all times. Even when you feel yourself to be having a "bad day", if what you are doing is that which for the most part, nourishes you, there is little change in the energy that is released by you, as it is perceived by others around you. And when you take the trouble to shift your own energy to a more pleasing way of Being, Love is multiplied even more than before. (Tikele) - http://www.tikele.com.au/

Celebrate Life. Find time to sing and dance and to be creative. You are the creative artists of the Universe. This is how you hold your balance on the Inner Planes; by setting the intention to celebrate the gifts of life and love as they are experienced every day. (Celia Fenn) - http://www.starchildascension.org/

And we exist! That alone is miraculous! We have survived a chronic, often fatal disease. For many of us, life is better than before addiction, because we've found a new appreciation for life, a new depth and peace, a new calmness. And we can continue to grow in recovery each beautiful day that is given to us. Today babies across the world are being born, bringing millions of hopeful and exciting possibilities into our world. Now, we're ready to take our place in the sun as one of the world's new hopeful possibilities. We live and breathe and feel and think, and we are watched over by a Higher Power who loves us and has a plan for our lives. Today let me look for the good in my world and be thankful. (Source) - http://www.hazelden.org/

Ocean Serenity

Ocean Serenity
Inspiration and Motivation

BROKEN

I Re-broke My Hand Again...

Everyone's Card: The SUN ~ Tarot Deck Spiral

General Meaning:

What has traditionally been known as the Sun card is about the self -- who you are and how you cultivate your personality and character. The earth revolves around the sun to make up one year of a person's life, a fact we celebrate on our birthday.

The Sun card could also be titled "Back to Eden." The Sun's radiance is where one's original nature or unconditioned Being can be encountered in health and safety. The limitations of time and space are stripped away; the soul is refreshed and temporarily protected from the chaos outside the garden walls.

Under the light of the Sun, Life reclaims its primordial goodness, truth and beauty. If one person is shown on this card, it is usually signifying a human incarnation of the Divine.

Sunset ~ Magen's Bay

Sunset ~ Magen's Bay
Pirates That Demand You To Surrender *** ***** : ]

Another Crazy Horoscope? Oh SHIT... It Wasn't My Horoscope though...

Your lover or friend may assume too much today as he or she acts in a rather selfish manner. You might be surprised or even offended by other people's current carelessness or by their lack of compassion, but don't expect to understand. A relationship situation is likely out of your control, so as the lightning strikes just watch with the knowledge that the storm will quickly pass if you don't become too rigid.


And on October 10th... Thanx for SKYPIN' me AX!!! Your a BLAST man. I Appreciated talking to a damn good friend at home from a place like here. Let alone talking to a damn good friend from home for almost an hour...

We'll run some radio when I'm back someday after a handful of weeks. Thanx for you support Buddy~ : )

~I Do UnderWater Explorations every Tuesday~
~Scuba with tha fishies! And I find the Underwater Sun Rays~

Swimming in the Rain...

This Is a Place I Spent a Lot of Time at Growing Up...

This Is a Place I Spent a Lot of Time at Growing Up...
Since The Days I Was a Little Boy ; ) LOL

Friday, October 23, 2009

Oh Hell YEEAAA!!! It Was a BADASS BLAST...

They rolled out the Red Carpet for me and King Mera!

I drank a Havana Blueberry Tropic Drink at one of the most gorgeous places here in these Islands... I found an awesome way to calculate the great things in life...

I've had a helluva lot of happy fun here too. I had a nervous breakdown once earlier this week. I guess it was legitimate because of what I was up against... But as all hard times come to pass, there was a great bright light at the end of that tunnel.

Things are pretty cool here. Sometimes it's a little different than what most would believe but Paradise is pretty cool at the edges on the islands...

The Palm tress are just as gorgeous as I always had imagined them...

I met the friend I came across on the night of September 23rd when i felt like I was skippin' dimensions. My buddy David from Columbia above Brazil and below the Caribbean. That night I met him the first time, it was the night I made my first Island Life Flashback video when I was at Sapphire Beach. That was two weeks after I could've got shot. Literally. It was a blast seeing him again... I Also met some friend I can post up with in London when I am to Return to Ireland someday as it makes itself possible sometime. I know when I do go to Ireland again, it'd be easy to return to Ireland because my Irish Parents always welcome my presence and who I bring with me too. And St. Daniel will take me anywhere I wish!!

Ireland is such a place that is laced with magic and adventure!
While St. Thomas is a place laced with fantasy and insanity.

And last night, I had some of the funnest times I ever had here. I also will meet the President soon. And people here are beginning there own blogs and books for their records and poetic expressions because of the many people who came to enjoy my example. Such a place to make a consistent amount of dreams seem true. It's all really welcoming.

There are days that I have that are bad or bummed out.

I had never believed in limits and it is because I have always believed the sky to be the limit because I have actually touched it. I also came from it at times.

My homesickness resided and I have bounced back from the nervous breakdown attack I had.

There have been several times I have cried in these islands. Some times were from sheer happiness. My mother has only cried once happy. I have cried happy about 9 times so far out of awesome and amazing happiness. Yet there were times I had cried out of confusion, uncertainty, stress (just pertaining to personal life errands and island realities most know nothing of). But for what I have lined up with my time, I will find out about a new level of luck and faith.

Sunday, October 4, 2009

A Horoscope... It Wasn't The Leo's though...

You may be bouncing back and forth between being extremely emotional and overly intellectual. It's challenging for you to find a resting place between your heart and your head, especially when they each lead you in a different direction. It may be wiser for you to simply stay where you are and postpone your decision for a day or two. Your choices will be clearer once the hectic energy starts to settle down.

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

My Horoscope Was Dead On Today!! I Think I'm on the Next Page (Page)... Another Place and Record for all of Whatever..

It's SO Interesting how something at the Beginning of the Month made sense at the very END of the month...


















I'ts been dead on practically every time I've read it recently. It is crazy how many things might be written in the Stars. I thought of friends back at home. I've been doing that a lot lately. This place is only gonna last so long before I am in another time zone, seasonal shock, and homely comfort. My Horoscope Said...

Now that interactive Mercury is moving direct again, information will begin to flow more freely. Mercury creates a friendly sextile with spontaneous Mars, encouraging us to express our thoughts. Following our intuition should have positive results as the Moon enters psychic Pisces...

Leo:

"Someone can bring you an important lesson about forgiveness today."

This person doesn't know I found something today I've never came across. Some how it makes the beginning of this month make sense at the end of this month... It was called Forgiveness and the Art of letting go. Hmmm... I felt compelled to tell of the awesome things I've learned.

The things I have felt that has put me into an excitement that seems to glow so much that my people around love to laugh with me enough to feel how fun life really is. I've felt like myself for a while now and I have never been more happier before.

This season of Summer is extending when back at home, my peers, people, friends, and family are feeling the sign of the season. The transition into the next. I've already foreseen some excellent things. I've accomplished a lot and I've been ecstatic and thrilled so much lately. I wish I could tell my parents the half of it because it is a blast to actually hear from loved ones back at home for all the things I've made happen for me here. These stories are FOREVER!! :)

I've learned something about virtues of Gratitude, Sacrifice, Solitude, Clarity, Forgiveness, Discovery, Exploration, Fantasy, Fun, Expression... There is an Era of Reason that will rise from the Chaos. Anthony Keidis from the Red Hot Chili Peppers said, "Destruction Leads to a Very Rough Road but it Also Breeds Creation."

I've learned more about myself in the last 2 years than I ever have at all. I've learned more since my near-death experience than some people can learn in YEARS...

Identity and inspiration surfaced in an explosive way the days I went to Ireland and found out about my heritage, history, Legendre, Love (in a broad, luminous, universal way), empowerment, and patience.

I've been blown away with life lately. I don't know if all things would have occurred the same exact way if it wasn't for something that happened in the first couple months of this year. No one knows of that moment that woke me up to these possibilities now. It turns out, I've already realized how interesting, easy, entertaining, and interpersonal things can be when people are enjoying life the right ways. There is a lot to share, a lot to believe, a lot to recall, and a lot to be thankful for... I don't know who sees these cyber dairies at all but among the people here in college in the Virgin Islands... A lot of people acknowledge an honor in reading what I write. It kind of reminds me what Cassandra Wass was talkin' about some time last week.

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

It's HAPPENING... I Had a Beautiful Day... But I Also Realized...


















I had done something today that was OUT OF THIS WORLD. I'd love to describe that more so than what I'm about to. Some other things hit me today. Before that is known though, I meant to say that I had done the most Beautiful Underwater Explorations Ever. It was the only one I've actually got off shore for. We went on out first Boat Ride into the Bay away from St. Thomas and into further distances from Shore. We sailed to Flat Cay close to the Savanna. I also seen Puerto Rico in the Horizon. I was pretty pumped. We took our scuba gear and went deep water diving in the Caribbean. I wish I had a friend with me though from home because being underwater and seeing hair float as much as you feel constantly weightless and comfortable... I looked up to the water surface and it looked like a euphoric or luminous mercury with the way the Sun shined on and through the water. It reminded me of the song by breaking Benjamin called Water. I chased other scuba's air bubbles because it was cool to swing your fingers through huge air pockets under water. It was too amazing because I've never seen anything like it at all. I couldn't believe my eyes. I had a helluva blast. Then later that night, I found such a foreign sense of inspiration because I found out what is happening in our Country. I thought about people who I would want to be protective of when things break out in this land...

Everything I thought of as long ago as when I had told my parents in 2000. And now with what occurred in Pittsburgh, I felt how we ARE ALREADY THERE. It's 2009 and soon 2010 is gonna be near. I know where I'll be. I felt all my old premonitions come true today. It turns out, The New World Order is HAPPENING NOW.

I realized what is going on in our Nation, our Constitution is under attack. I called my parents. It was only 4 or 5 nights ago I called my sister in the middle of the night through my skype account because of how AFFECTED I was by a dream I had. It was a very scary, alerting dream of my parents. I will not tell of what I dreamed but it was very strong. I told my parents today what I dreamed and I also realized how the New World Order is happening right now. One of my Brothers back at home went to buy ammunition for whats escalating in our nation. EVERYBODY IS OUT. The government bought all gun ammunition so people will not be able to purchase what we are entitled to with the 2nd amendment. The American Police Force is forcing people to hand in their guns. Then creating 'Mass Media White Wash Reports' as if they are "helpful," and "practicing." There has been Detention Camps set up across this Nation. There has been devices that are placed in locations that dissolve electricity. Tap Water has been Poisoned. And the Federal Reserve is possibly on a hot-seat about being audited. I seen what Occurred in Pittsburgh... And as I had found out...

I immediately knew what I had to do. I have my ideas about what a lot of things are goin' to come down to soon enough. I will be home when I know I will and I instantly began to think of how unaware people are about what is leading up to 2012. Even now, This Super-Power... It is economically falling as it is becoming culturally chaotic. The intense World-Events began at what is emerging as of now.

On the Seventh of September, I went to Brewer's Bay here in St. Thomas. I told things in Video Diaries about hysteria and what is gonna happen. I guess what I mention to myself on an interpersonal event between me and a friend, it somehow seemed validated to me when I actually got plugged into the World again after being cut off from the one I knew not too long ago. I was never fearful about the things that are to come. I think people who know less are going to be the most surprised. Then what I heard Martin Luther King say will prove true when people find out their true character during the moments of hardships and trial rather than the moments of prestige and luxury. I am thrilled, and just as curious as I am excited because soon enough, people are going to need to be protected. The Strong Will Survive. I've thought of those who would be true enough to discover what will matter soon.

I called my cousin Heather Callaway through SKYPE and I talked to her for about 30 to 40 minutes. We seen eachother through the screen in real time. I was very entertained and I also told her of all the exciting things that are beyond me. She is the only one I've been able to get ahold of this way. I had so many funny stories and I've also became so enthused on all the things I've learned here. I really miss the ones I care about at home. I called my Dad and my Mother. I told Mama a buncha crazy things because I speak to my MUM like no one else IN THE WORLD.

And my Dad is hilarious. I talk to Joe too. I've felt like myself again for a helluva long time as of now. August was a rough month for me. I'm tryin to get back in touch with hella people back at home. And soon enough, it'll be easier after certain things happen. I'm very determined.

And of other things, the President of the Writer's Block wants me to help about creating a website for the Writer's Block Nights we run. It'll be a blast.

I also talked to my homeboy from Ashland: Tyler. He didn't have his girlfriend with him so we went Diving together in Scuba. I told him of some things I wouldn't tell others because he's actually from Southern Oregon. It was cool to be close with someone who already knew me.

And I am really missing St. Daniel over in Ireland too!! : )

Monday, September 28, 2009

Do You Wonder?

I Live it Everyday...

Good Start : )

After class, I went to the Student Activities Center where I pick up my mail.

One of my homies said something that I couldn't help butt smile at. Slim was like, "Man, whats that hard-core shit you be listenin' to man?" I was like, "Man, it's just as melodic, emotional, and artistic as it is hard-core~ : ) You wanna hear it?"

"Nah, thats too hard-core for me man."

"It ain't that hard-core. (I was listening to Breath by Breaking Benjamin) Butt I tell you what, you'll hear it SOMEDAY homeboy!! I be buyin' some logictech speakers for my laptop and I blast that shit up!"

He's like, "Man, your hard-core Crum. You crazy maaan."

I just started shakin' my fists like a kid at Christmas cuz it was funny to me. I think it'd be an interesting idea to tally all the descriptions that people give of me here. To keep track of the things people say or see in me. A lot of the times it is a lot of the same words or adjectives just by different people at different times. A cool way to start the day. I've kinda been needing a good day for a while now too...


Then when I went to eat lunch. I was with my home boy Max, and my lady friends Kate and Jenna. I started to talk about certain things I probably shouldn't mention through the internet. Then I told them what the word 'Caribbean' actually means. They looked at me and was interested and attentive. Kate said, "Every time I'm with you I always learn something new."

I was like, "Whaaa? : ) What do you mean?"

Kate said, "Your just full of knowledge."

"Damn.... Thanks..."

Then me and Max talked about goin' and gettin blasted... Under the Gun. I'm pretty sure we're gonna...